She asked me to sign the form
but the name just wouldn’t come out.
From the tip of my pen, my own name
simply refused to be written. I kept wondering
what the hell was wrong with me, asked
for more paper, tried again and again
but the letters wouldn’t form the correct structure.
I wrote JOHN instead of JOSHUA.
John is my dad’s name. My dad’s. Not mine.
She gave me new paper. Said I still had time.
Joshua Seigal