WHOSE POEM IS IT?

A sentiment I have expressed before on my blog is this: it can sometimes be hard, when writing a post, to navigate between two different impulses. The first is to post material that reflects me in a good light, and thus increases my prospects for future employment. (As a self-employed person this is always at the back of my mind.) The second is to post reflective pieces in which I examine my own practice and speak frankly about my perceived weaknesses. I'm hoping that this is not a true dichotomy. At any rate, in this post I'd like to highlight, if not a weakness, then an area of difficulty I encounter frequently in my work.

There are, broadly speaking, two different facets to my job: writing and educating. Within the 'education' bracket there are two further elements: teaching and performing. It is my view that a good deal of teaching is in fact a kind of performance. When I'm standing in front of a whole class, talking to them about poetry or just generally having a laugh, I feel very much like I am in 'performance' mode, not too dissimilar from when I am standing up in assembly or on stage reciting my poems and telling silly jokes and stories. However, it is also true that parts of teaching require not a performance, but perhaps something with a greater level of authenticity or personal connection.

I am talking here about the times, during a workshop, when a student will ask me for one-to-one help. I feel that, at this stage of my career, I have pretty much got the performance side of my work nailed. I feel confident standing up in front of almost any group, of any size, and talking for up to an hour. This could constitute pure entertainment (I didn't distinguish above between educating and entertaining, and I am not sure there is a clear distinction in the first place), or it could involve what is known in educational circles as 'direct instruction', which is when a teacher directly expounds and demonstrates the material to the class. What I currently find much more challenging, however, is assisting and dealing with students on a personal basis. We might say that I am (currently) more comfortable as a lecturer than as a tutor.

My relative hesitancy when dealing with students on a one-to-one basis arises from a couple of factors. The first is that, despite professional appearances to the contrary, I am something of an introvert in my social life. In this sense, my performances may be functioning as a kind of screen from my true self, rather than a representation of it. However I think this is only partly true; I like to think of my performances as depictions of my ideal self, the self that I wish I could be 'in real life', when I step away from the stage and into the maw of everyday human interaction.

The second factor that sometimes renders one-to-one work difficult for me is something that I'd love to know if other poet-educators can relate to, and can be summed up by the titular question: 'whose poem is it?' Often what will happen is that a student will put their hand up and say either "I'm stuck" or "I'm finished", when the poem they are writing is manifestly incomplete. At this point it is quite easy to provide a checklist of poetic techniques - metaphor, simile, alliteration, personification - and to ask the student simply to make sure the poem contains a certain number of these. If the aim of the workshop is to explore and introduce students to these very techniques then this approach might suffice. However, it is a somewhat formulaic approach and often goes against the grain of the poetic endeavour, which is to write from the heart and not from a set of tick-boxes, as though we were assembling furniture.

The crux of the problem is that, when a student tells me that they are unsure how or whether to continue a poem, I can often see how their poem might be improved, how a better metaphor or simile might be found or how a better ending could be constructed. However, isn't the purpose of a poetry workshop to enable them to see how a poem could be improved? This, surely, should be the aim of the 'direct instruction' I mentioned above, and it is why during my workshops I try to include some elements where I 'model' poetry writing for the class. But we are not talking about the class here; we are talking about an individual student who needs help or advice. At this stage I am often simply unsure what to do, beyond the aforementioned tick-box exercise.

If I had a sustained amount of time working with an individual student, there are several things I might do. I would ask the student what they want to achieve with their poem, who the intended readership or audience might be and what emotions or feelings they want to convey. I would also bring in a range of poetry written by other poets, that we might explore and discuss together. But during a workshop with a class there is simply not the time or space for this. And furthermore, the kinds of students who put their hands up and ask for help are often not the students who particularly want to be in the room writing poetry in the first place. They might simply be looking for easy answers so that they can get the whole damn thing over with.

I do not have the answers here. I hope that I continue to do my job for many more years to come, and that during this time I continue to reflect on my practice and to come up with ideas for how to assist students on an individual basis.

ADVICE FOR FREELANCE ARTISTS

A couple of years ago I listened to a speech on the radio by Neil Gaiman. I cannot remember which particular speech it was, but within it Gaiman expounded a really powerful set of principles for freelance artists. Ever since I heard Gaiman's talk, I have tried to shape my working life according to these principles, and what follows is a brief overview of the points, as I understand them. I hope other freelance artists find them helpful.

(1) Make Good Art

This is the obvious bedrock of any freelance artist's endeavours; without making good art you are unlikely to get much work. Therefore, concentrating one's efforts in this direction is paramount: always try to make good art, and constantly try to improve upon your previous output.

(2) Be Reliable

Some freelance artists seem to think that being reliable is merely an incidental part of the job. It is not. Things like replying to emails, arriving at places punctually, organising one's diary and finances are not just crucial to being a freelance artist, they are part of the very job itself. I myself am unable to relax unless I feel my admin is in perfect order.

(3) Be Likeable

This is somewhat more nebulous than the previous two points, but I think it is no less crucial. Always try to behave like a nice person. If you are having a conversation with someone at a networking event, for example, don't constantly look over their shoulder to see if someone better is in the room. Be polite and personable. Say 'please' and 'thank you'. Don't be a diva. Don't be a jerk.

In my working life I try really hard to adhere to each of the three principles above. However, the main take-home point I got from Gaiman's talk was that, so long as you try to adhere to all of the principles, failure in any one of them (so long it is only one) will not be disastrous. For example, if you are reliable and likeable, employers might forgive the fact that your art isn't necessarily the best. Similarly, if you make good art and are highly reliable, it may not be the end of the world if you aren't always the politest and friendliest of people. And if you make good art and are highly likeable, a few missed emails or other lapses in reliability might well be forgiven.

Main Point

The main point, as I see it, is this. In the life of a freelance artist, it is important to try to adhere to all of the three principles above. So long as you try your hardest in this endeavour, there is room for a little bit of leeway (but only a little bit.)

STUMP

she is outside again with her plastic watering can, watering the stump. I've told her any number of times that the tree is dead, that stumps don't grow but still she is outside, her smile like a rainbow, and she tells me that without the rain we'll never know.

THE FARMER'S LAMENT

I had a hen.

I had a cow.

But that was then,

and this is now. 

NEW POEM - 'MONKEY OFF MY BACK'

This poem sadly didn't make the cut for my latest, forthcoming book (Jan 2020). However, it is a catchy performance piece about, well, anxiety, and I thought it deserves a bit of an airing. So here goes. Enjoy!

MONKEY OFF MY BACK

Monkey off my back!

Monkey off my back!

Gotta get the

Gotta get the

Monkey off my back!

No matter where I try to go

the monkey comes with me.

He wraps his legs around me

like he's hanging from a tree.

He throws things at my teachers

and he bellows at my friends.

I need to make him go away!

I need to make amends.

Monkey off my back!

Monkey off my back!

Gotta get the

Gotta get the

Monkey off my back!

The monkey shares a bed with me,

he has his own pyjamas.

He makes my bedroom dirty

with the skins of old bananas.

My parents kicked me out the house,

the monkey made them cross.

I’m desperate to get rid of him,

he needs to know who’s boss.

Monkey off my back!

Monkey off my back!

Gotta get the

Gotta get the

Monkey off my back!

The monkey’s getting cumbersome.

He’s really quite a weight!

He’s hairy and he’s smelly

and he makes me feel irate.

He doesn’t even let up

when I’m sitting on the loo.

My heart feels like a jungle

and my head feels like a zoo!

Monkey off my back!

Monkey off my back!

Gotta get the

Gotta get the

MONKEY OFF MY BACK!

FAMILY TREE

In the autumn we take a trip

to visit my grandma’s favourite tree. 

“It’s been there ever since I was 

a little girl” she says. 

Her tree is alone in the middle of a field

by the side of the road we always drive down

every time we come around

on our journey up from London. 

Its once green leaves now crusty brown

with skeleton branches poking through,

its trunk stands firm and tall and proud

in the face of the changing seasons. 

In the autumn we take a trip

to visit my grandma’s favourite tree. 

It is not dead, though it seems to be;
it knows that summer will come again.

NEW POEM: ANGER

About a year ago I wrote a blog post about writing poems in which emotions are personified. Here is another effort:

Anger

I snake my way through your ventricles,

spawning venomous vipers

in the chambers of your chest. 

I am the tremors twitching beneath

your surface, your skin straining

to contain my poison 

I lurk like a limpet on ossified hearts

and seep like sap

from sharpened fangs.

I am a writer snapping a pen. 

I am a monkey on your shoulder. 

I am anger.